it seems like light years since i felt like writing.
illusions and disillusionment.
the things we want always seem so well-defined, every line fine and every detail well rendered to the extent of seeming plastic;
and then you go out there and try to find what you are looking for, only to be faced with a dull reality.
but not always. sometimes, reality is beautiful.
it might not be all you wanted. far from it maybe.
but it's beautiful in some twisted, tragic way.
it makes you open your eyes, open your mind, and embrace all that makes you.